The Little Egg That Could!

(pre-egg retrieval)

Saturday was my Egg Retrieval and I have to say that I am proud of myself I took the IV like a champ, I was really worried about that and if you know me then you know. I did have a mini-anxiety attack when I was taken into the surgical room, it was just all so real and that scared me. The anesthesiologist was holding my hand and told me that the medicine would burn really bad and I remember saying “my arm is on fire” and I was out. I woke up about 30 minutes later in recovery. Thats when the day took a turn, we were then told that we only had 1 egg. I cried, a lot….so did Matt and we made the nurse cry. You see everyone is different but mostly people will have anywhere from 14-30 eggs. And you all even saw my ultrasound photos in the last post… everything looked great but those follicles were empty. All my blood work showed the indication that my egg growth was on par and we don’t know why this was the case but it was. Normally over 1/2 the eggs retrieved will die so only having 1, it’s the worst case scenario. I mean 1?

SO after I was well enough to get dressed they sent me home and I slept the whole day, I was cramping and groggy. Saturday the embryologist called to tell us that my ONE egg was a Mature good egg! Great news! Then yesterday I got the call that the “Little Egg That Could” survived the night and was fertilized with Matt’s sperm!! SO on the picture below my Egg has made it thru Day 1 of 5!! I will get a call today to see if the cells have started dividing to make an embryo. We have to have this little egg survive to Day 5, when we will transfer the embryo back inside of me. 

You know all weekend I wasn’t sure if I was going to share this news with everyone, but it is part of my journey and I want to show that not everything goes according to plan. I gave myself Saturday to be sad and depressed and now I am trying to be positive that this little miracle egg will survive it’s journey and do it’s job. I also wasn’t going to share this because I felt embarrassment, like all my “cycle sisters” I have found on Instagram they all had 24-30 eggs and like 14 fertilized, I feel inadequate. It’s stupid I know, my journey is my own and we don’t know why this happened. But I ultimately decided to share what happened with you all because this “Little Egg That Could” needs all the prayers and positive vibes it can sent it’s way!
I know you all are wondering what happens if this egg doesn’t survive the 5 days? Then we are done. For now.
What is happening with me this week? Well I am still VERY bloated and cramping from this weekend. I am so uncomfortable I feel like at any moment my abdomen will burst open and an Alien will pop out just like in the movie! haha! Also I start prepping my body for the transfer with more injections, oral medicine and vaginal gel (gross, I know). And I am going to acupuncture today as well.
I want to thank everyone who reached out this weekend, your thoughts and prayers were so appreciated, knowing so many people have our back is such a nice feeling. And to all the prayer warriors I had this weekend, my friends, my home church in Oklahoma it helped. Thank you. And now let’s keep it up, let’s all pray for my LITTLE EGG THAT COULD

5 Comments

  1. Anonymous
    April 18, 2016 / 4:41 pm

    Thanks for posting an updating your blog people! I have been on pins and needles all morning. Let me know in a message when you get the call today. I continue to keep that Little Egg That Could in constant prayer! Posting her; the prayer warriors and good vibe people will definitely grow even more!Big Hugs to you and Matt!

  2. Sarah Couture
    April 18, 2016 / 5:18 pm

    Continuous prayers for you, Matt, and your Little Egg That Could. I have decided that I cannot wait to send Little Egg its namesake, The Little Egine That Could book so you can read it and they will know just how extra tough they already are!

  3. Anna B
    April 18, 2016 / 9:17 pm

    Nicole I'm so sorry to hear about that but good job on staging optimistic. When we did IVF, I had 25 follicles and in the end we had only 1 make it to day 5 and two make it to day 6. Having 3 embryos made me feel the same way as everyone else around me was having more than double that. Often it's the stimulation which is what I was told, it just wasn't the right combo for ME to produce the best eggs. I hope your egg makes it, it will be a very special baby if it does. I wouldn't give up just yet. When I found out that the stims are what ultimately affected the outcome of the eggs retrieved, it gave me hope that I wasn't to blame and that all this in the end is about figuring out what works and what doesn't with a lot of trial and error.

  4. Anonymous
    April 18, 2016 / 9:40 pm

    sending positive vibes your way!!! this could be your miracle, so proud of your strength through this journey 🙂

  5. Kathryn
    April 19, 2016 / 4:29 pm

    So glad you posted an update, I was wondering how everything went! Will definitely be praying for your little egg and sending lots of baby vibes your way- as I was told when going through all the fertility treatments, it just takes ONE!!!! 🙂

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