I have spared you all from reading a migraine rant of a blog for some time now……..but today is not one of those days. We all know I have migraines…….. And in case you are new here is what we all know:
1. I have a neurologist and I have chronic migraines
2. I take a daily preventative med that doesn’t prevent anything
3. I have “as needed” medication that I take but insurance limits how many I can have, so I have to judge wether this is one I want to suffer from or take a pill
4. I get 8 hours of sleep, I never skip a meal, I am never around smoke, I only have a glass of wine every now and then and yes, I live a very structured life to help cut migraine chances.
Ok, moving on……………..
I have tried so many “fads” over these last 10 years to try and help my migraines….. I will try anything once if there is a chance it will help. Last month I changed up my “migraine cocktail” and for about 3 1/2 week I was migraine free. I can not explain to you how amazing it is to be going to bed at night and think “wait, I felt good all day”? It is baffling. I would give ANYTHING anything to get rid of these but sadly it is a hereditary diease. I mean those few weeks when I felt good….everything was better. I thanked God all day everyday for the gift of feeling good. I can not imagine what it is like to be “normal” and to wake up everyday just feeling like you…..and not with chronic pain.
I made the mistake of speaking the words “I have been feeling good” out loud and I really think I have cursed myself. Since Saturday I have had a non-stop migraine each day and I am blowing thru my medication like crazy. After experiencing feeling better I am devastated to feel so sick this week. It is awful. Really, I can’t explain to you how sad I am that those 3 weeks must have been a “fluke”. This week has been terribly sad and frankly I am pissed at my head. HA! For real.
I know there is nothing you can do but sometimes I just need to vent and ya, complain. If you have never had a migraine then you have no idea how debilitating they are. I like to play a game in my head that goes “I would give up_______ if I never have another migraine again” and you would be surprised what all I would be willing to put into that blank.