It keeps getting better…..

1. SO today I took my new Jeep in for a oil change before the long haul to Ohio and to work out a few “kinks” the car was having. 3 hours later they told me they need to replace part of my steering wheel and bring in someone to work on the electric and they will “try” their hardest to get it done before I MOVE NEXT WEEK! So I am in a rental car that must of been owned my a smoker….it is awful. It is like nothing is easy for me.  I am not sure why everything keeps happening….or why I am being tested. I have every right to get down and feel a little beat up over everything. It is the way I feel, people can’t expect me to be 100% positive all the time. ?? Ya know? I am real, I am honest and I am 100% allowed to have feelings and share them.

2. Last week someone who reads my blog called me Fat…..and I just want to put this out there……that isn’t breaking news. And to answer your question “why, yes I did use to be a lot smaller” thanks for pointing that out. I am a lot heavier than I was a few years ago but I appreciate you letting me know. I fully plan on trying to loose weight after the move.

3. Now about my prior post, I was upset last night and when I said “ghetto people who can’t get a loan” I really upset people apparently. Well, ya know what? Whatever……..don’t be a fan anymore…….don’t follow anymore. That was NEVER meant to offend anyone and I don’t see why that would. If you read this and I guess you could not get a home loan then I am sorry for you….everything is crazy now-a-days but what I was meaning is that Matt and I are great on paper…..we meet every qualification out there…..we aren’t like pushing the limits or whatever….so it is frustrating to me….why this would happen to us? It was an expression and I say it from time to time and I don’t plan on changing. I am sorry you do not know me better to know I am NEVER intentional mean or rude. So Goodbye to you whomever you are.

But I guess as my blog gets bigger and I gain new readers A. sometimes people can read into what I write B. You could just feel like kicking me when I am down C. Or you might disagree with me?!?!?
Good for you
But that is new to me…these comments are new and maybe I deserve them? I guess maybe after this entire ordeal is over I will come thru stronger and in a sense be stronger by getting thicker skin towards people who don’t like me.

So….lets end on a positive note…..I have a new blog design made and it will be up by tomorrow. I am excited about it. New starts all around it seems

4 Comments

  1. danielle
    May 3, 2012 / 6:11 pm

    i have read your blog for a while, but am a first time commenter. i went to high school with your hubby. just wanted to encourage you (i have to remind myself of this).. this is YOUR blog.. this is where you can write what you want to.. people have a choice of what they read.. you are not forcing one person to read it. you are frustrated right now, understandably so… this is a great avenue to document your journey! dont let others discourage you. 🙂

  2. Amy
    May 3, 2012 / 6:38 pm

    Keep your head up! You're doing great!

  3. Erin
    May 3, 2012 / 7:02 pm

    Nicole – don't worry about what other people say or think! This is YOUR blog and people don't like what you write then they can leave. It's all about documenting "right now" so keep on! Hope things turn around for you really quick!

  4. Practical Traci
    May 3, 2012 / 7:31 pm

    Hang in there, Nicole! You will be relaxing in the sun light overlooking your beautiful backyard in Ohio very soon. Try to enjoy your last days in OKC, it's a great time to be in Thunder Nation. You have a supporting family, a loving husband and an exciting adventure ahead. Wouldn't you hate for life to be boring? Curve balls can be fun, try to see the positive in things.

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