So…I was reading a great blog I follow, Lindsay at Sweet American Honey (http://asweetamericanhoney.blogspot.com/) and her recent post about being a grown up and it really hit the nail on the head! It also got me thinking…….when do we “grow up”? This has been on my mind alot as my Birthday looms over my head.
*In high school I thought I had my life planned out:
1. I was to be married at 23
2. Have first baby at 25
3. Have the second at 28 and be done before 30! A boy and a girl of course!
HAHA! Well that ship has sailed I turn 30 in 2 weeks from today and out of that list I have only the husband. But to show you how plans change…I don’t even know when I want to have children. Don’t get me wrong, I assume we will but when? Not soon.
* Next, growing up I wanted to be several things:
Well, I was a pro dancer for a few years…in the world of dance making it to the NBA is a big deal. I also planned some weddings a few years ago but that doesn’t pay the bills. I never would of thought I would grow up and be a Landman but I like it so far. Sometimes I still daydream what it would be like if I did better in school and was smarter…….if I went to school to be something like a doctor. Would I be happier? More than likely not, but I am a person who plays the “what if” game….too much.
* What does “Grown Up” feel like? I think some people feel more grown up because they have children and because I don’t I feel younger than 30.? Not that I even know what 30 feels like. I also think I may feel younger because Matt and I are still getting “established” in our careers and we still look ahead to that bigger house, the better car and great vacations for two. Have you noticed that now more than ever there is this pressure to have it all? I mean it is like everyone skipped the “starter home” or the beater car!?? But when you live like that where can you go from there? There is no growing up to do when you have it all to start with!??
So the point? I am not sure…..I mean how does anyone know what they want to be when they grow up? To be honest I don’t know too many people who love their job…work is work. Does anyone not wish they had more money? The grass is always greener on the other side isn’t it? I am just more honest than others. Most people would tell you “they are more than blessed, they have a better life than they could of even dreamed up……they are perfect” and maybe some of you are but I doubt it. We all just have to show up everyone else in the “I am more blessed than you are game”…..and it bugs. Well friends, I am starting to ramble so I will go before I loose you all but I ask you…..are you living your dream? How did you know what you wanted to be when you grew up? Thoughts?