Blue..

Hi again! SO stay with me here as I try to express some thoughts and feelings………..today on my Birthday Eve I am a tad blue. But not necessarily the complete down in the dumps blue….just weird. Everyone has been asking me “So how are you feeling about turning 30?” and I don’t know…..I don’t how I am suppose to feel?! It is so odd I literally can’t put my feelings into words. Tonight I will be doing what I do best laying on the couch with my dogs watching TV while Matt is at work and in a way that is perfect because that is what I do best……but then another part of me thinks “is this how I want to spend my last day in my 20s EVER?”! I am not sure….then another part of me wants to bake a whole cake and devour it! Maybe it is also this weird cold, windy and raining Oklahoma weather that has got me down? I am not sure either.  (yes, I know nothing)  It is just weird to leave an ENTIRE decade behind! I mean really? I can’t remember what I was doing on the eve of my 20th Birthday (probably something bad)..and I can’t remember how I felt about leaving my teens behind? More than likely excited!!! But 30 is a bit different! It is like tonight as I lay my head on my pillow I am closing one whole chapter in my life and putting it away …..to wake up to something new tomorrow. And that is both good and bad!
Well guys, thanks for listening……wish me luck and if you don’t hear from me tomorrow then I more than likely baked the cake, ate the whole thing myself and I am in a sugar coma on the couch still…..call for help!

Until Next Time friends……….when I start a new chapter of my life with you……..

4 Comments

  1. Marisa
    April 28, 2011 / 1:35 am

    I can totally relate to this post. I might be in the delivery room on the last day of my twenties or losing sleep with a new baby at home and I'm worried this moment is just going to pass by without being given a lot of thought or attention. Since you've got a quiet night to yourself, my suggestion would be to write a letter to yourself. Yes, I know it sounds corny. But congratulate yourself on all you've accomplished in the last ten years and all that you've learned. List some of your best and worst moments and be thankful for all the people that came or left your life over these years. Embrace where you are now and put no pressures on your future self. Put this letter away until you're 40. What do you think? Okay, off to take my own advice…

  2. Natalie
    April 28, 2011 / 12:44 pm

    Don't be so hard on yourself! Embrace the fact that you are human and couldn't quite get around to it all, even if some of it was just enjoying your doggies, couch and TV (which is important)! You do SO much between volunteering, your family, your friends… I don't know how you get it all done! So, my advice is, sit back and let those that love you do what you do best! Let them treat you to a fabulous day and let them shower you with love and all the things that will make you happy!!! ENJOY! Happy Birthday Sweet Friend!!!! PS – Keep that list around and try to do more of it this year. No one is perfect, thank God! Plus, maybe there is a reason you haven't done some of those things yet, there is a reason for everything!!!

  3. Becky
    April 28, 2011 / 3:48 pm

    Another year older is not necessarily closing a chapter in your life…it is the sequel and best is to come.Just keep your outlook positive and keep doing the things you love.Hope the cake was good 🙂

  4. Caroline
    April 28, 2011 / 5:15 pm

    I don't think there's a better way to celebrate a birthday eve than doing exactly what you enjoy 🙂 Every time I've tried to plan out a big fuss for a birthday and celebration I get so anxious about making it the best possible most exciting thing it could be and hardly end up enjoying myself by the time it's over. Your 30s will be great 🙂 People make too big of a deal over transitioning from one decade to the next – like most things in life, it is what you make of it!I hope you have the best birthday! I'll be eating a cupcake for you 😉

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