I am gonna join this meme today.....
Me in the beginning of 2016
Me today at the end of 2016
But for real, this morning I got out my trusty spiral notebook and looked back at this time last year to see what my goals were for 2016, I love walks down memory lane. But what started out as a hopeful year heck my word of the year was HOPE (you can see that post HERE) didn't end up being all roses and sunshine. I did have Hope all year I held it in my hand and in my heart. I had other goals some I did: Decorate the 1/2 bath, organize the mud room and become a realtor. But all the other goals were overshadowed by Trying to Conceive. I mean how could it not.
This year was the year of THIS................
You can read this post HERE
This was our 3rd year of Infertility and this year culminated with 7 failed IUI's and 2 failed IVF's. And the year ended with the news that we will not have a biological child of our own. I do want to say that looking back and seeing this picture above sadness is not the first thing that comes to mind but BRAVE. I literally cannot believe everything I had to do these past few years, I am very proud of myself. Proud of myself for doing it, getting thru and sharing my story which helped a few people along the way. And now as I have talked about before Matt and I have to work on closing the door to this and 2016.
Second was the loss of our boy Oscar this year in March. I still cannot believe it is real and I think about him EVERY SINGLE DAY. The grief of loosing Oscar was the worst pain I have ever been thru. (HERE is one of the posts on Oscar) I literally cannot even make it thru writing these words because I miss him so much and the pain is so deep. Oscar Savage was one of the lights and loves of my life.